life is boring and busy.
i am supposed to be carefree and bumming around all day long.
unfortunately, it did not happen this way.
was bed-ridden last wed. (next day of my last paper)
how nice? its a real bad cold.
and the cold was stuck with me till yst.
for so many f.days.
& today, my voice is still not at its peak note.
i want my voice back!

was supposed to like party on wed as a post celebration or smth.
but without any good planning, everything will go to waste.
and i worked and worked since thursday.
finally! tommorrow will be the last day of the 6-consecutives working days
and wed, its my off day! :D
work resume on thursday. DAMN
last day is someday next week.
& soon, i will be starting my training.
i can predict i'll be really busy.

everything is happening too fast.
i cant even catch a glimpse of what is going on in my life.

everyone is asking me if im excited or what
to my surprise, i am not.
well, wouldnt say totally, but just not as excited as i-am-supposed-to-be
its more scare than excited i think.
theres this fear factor that i cant overcome.

and when i think about it,
it gets me sad.
when it starts, i will be really busy.
and i cant see my baby that often anymore.
it just deterred me from going ahead.

there is a path ahead that is ready for me to step on,
but i still feel the emptiness inside me.
and i know its bad to feel this way......