i fucking swear its like the WORST day ever.
damn moody this morning, a super bad sign to start a day like this.
had CRM presentation and its still okay.
only until the later part.
got back our ICA3 paper, was quite pleased initially
cos im one of the 19 who passed.
but after thinking abt it, i realised that i nv do very well.
disappointment and depressed until..........
i always have super high expectations for this module,
hoping to get a "distinction" =)
but now, my hopes are gone.
i was so so NEAR to "distinction" u know.
now, the feeling SUCKS!
immediately dropped to pit bottom like tt.
feel like a failure suddenly.

lucky, darling boy purposely took half day to acc me.
i guess this is the only thing that makes my day today.
thank you!

had my first meal in the late afternoon,
hungry like anything.
it just feel as if im disappearing into air in no time.
thats continues my moodiness.

was very deprived from sleep; and still is.
so went to have a quick nap.
but that irritating guy keep irritating me.
which make me ended up having a very sleepless sleep.
when i dont have enough sleep,
i tend to have a very bad mood.
that explains how im feeling right now.

then irritating guy had to leave alrdy,
cos hes going with his cousin.
so it makes me very unahppy.
was throwing my temper the whole night.
im over here feeling so down,
and hes going out.
i felt neglected and was unhappy.

after he left, i locked myself inside my room doing nth.
still feeling very moody and upset.
so i decided to go have some antidote; ICE CREAM.
it is when i find out another horrible thing.
someone ate my icecream, which irritaing-but-my-darling boy bought for me!!!
wah. totally furious.
usually, i wont be upset of cos.
but i dont know why im so flared up this time.
maybe its bcos the ice cream is from him.
so i shld have the full ownership of it.
moreover, i really need it to boost my spirit at this kinda time.

and bcos of this, i just quarrelled with my bros.
like really quarrel. which made me even more upset.
i nv thought things would turn out this way.
and some of his words are really hurting,
which i dont know how am i suppose to feel better like tt.
it've been very very long since we really quarrelled,
which im really glad abt it.
now? i dont know what to do now.
on one hand, i think that i did nothing wrong for "confronting" them.
on the other hand, i think i am.
sometimes, i really feel like a lousy sister.
i dont know what to do to make the bonding better.
its like so near, but yet so far.
they are just beside me, but i feel difficult to communicate to them.
its not like i dont love him, i DO.
even though i usually shout at them n all,
i always love them as my brother.
i scold them cos i want them to change for the better.
but i think im too harsh sometimes.

i just cant stop crying.
i feel useless of all sudden.
all i want is a happy ever life.