Sunday, July 08, 2007 Y
i dont know who to blame for all my moodiness.
myself? my pessimisim? or my pms?
maybe i shld just blame it on pms.
im getting really moody nowadays;
kept thinking about alot alot of things..
sometimes it really bothers me when i see married couples around.
cos sometimes, i really wish i have a family of my own.
but looking at my age. im too young.
what bout my career? my future?
i certainly cant spoilt it for a moment of ....?
i did asked sam about future.
but he dont seem as interested as me, which led me very disappinted n upset.
it just come to my mind that, "is he the one"
"is he the one im going to marry?" "am i the one he wanted?"
maybe im too pessimistic and possibly thinking too much.
i know i shldnt be thinking to that extend, but i just help it.
im getting far too excited to experience the future.
kept telling myself, I SHOULD CONCENTRATE ON MY STUDIES.
my future, my career.
but... im still upset.
everytime when i look at him, i really dont want to let him go.
but looking at the obstacles ahead,
maybe letting him go will be a better choice for him? n maybe me?
maybe im just thinking too much.......
