everything is over; finished.
theres no doubt to his words as he really spoke that with a very calm tone.
i guess its also the end of my life; all my happiness.
at the very moment, i really thought of doing so.
really just end my life, just like that.
but after second thoughts, i realised, its not worth it to just end my future for him.
yeah. even though i really love him that much.
so, at least im still sensible to actually think of that.

i dont know if i can do this,
but voices around me said i could.
just endure a few days of crying and weeping,
everything will be alright for me (hopefully).
maybe, its just a time-out for me
cause' i really need one after so many heartbreaks.

my heart really breaks to a zillion pieces.
i love him more than anyone knows it,
and ppl especially him, does not have any clue on that.
he thinks all the "i love you" i said is crap.
yeah. whatever. no point explaining so much.
as long as i know i did put in my best,
and i love him as much as i can.

hes a nice guy, really.
but ironically, he can be quite a jerk at times.
he breaks my heart like no one's business,
(which kinda make sense actually.)
and doesnt care how pain im feeling inside.
on the other hand, i swear he can be a super nice boyfriend.
his plus points is only known to me,
and im proud of it.
even though he now throw me aside again,
i still love him as much.
perhaps i should give up, like most of you will say.
but whether i can do it or not,
i really dont know.
we will see how things goes.

in these 4 years plus, i never regret loving him;
never regret spending such a long period on this only one guy i really loved.
im happy to have him,
im elated that he once love me.
if only everything could end till eternity.....
we both hope so,
but again, hopes are crashed.

if one day, im allowed to make a wish,
it will definitely be:
"i want to be with him forever, and really happily ever after"