ahhhh... i cant take it any more.
i really want to break down and cry.
have been keeping it inside myself for very long,
but i told myself, i must be strong.
i cant depend too much on him anymore.
yeah. its so must easier to say in words,
while actions are far from that.

it has only been a few days,
but it really feel like a million years to me.
have been trying to use my time fully
but still, it seems so colourless.
dee once told me,
"life is like cycle,
when it goes down,
it will come up."
i really hope everything would end soon.

no matter what,
i still have to face it.
its really time to have a break,
and give our relationship a test.
but why now??? WHY??
its my dear valentines' day pls.
although i have been complaining that
celebrating V'day is too commercialised,
i still wish to celebrate that important day la.
but i have got no valentine!!!!!
no one want me....
no one want to date me....
even there is,
the one i wish to date doesnt want to date me.
theres nothing worser than that.

OH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i forgot to blog abt smth!
how can?
he bought me a GUCCI handphone strap la!!!
oh my god! i was so surprised by it.
i really didnt expect him to get me anything.
and ya. somemore i didnt expect anything from GUCCI.
and he really bought it for me.
he bought it straight after he know that i changed my phone can!
and its hot pink in colour.
its really pretty!!!!
he did such sweet things when we are not together.
i dont know want to laugh or cry.
my only darling, i really love it very much! REALLY!

the day when he gave it to me was the recent sat.
and i am so unwilling to leave him.
cos i know after that day,
i wont get to see him so close in person again.
thinking of it already makes me wanna cry.
i very much dont want to go work after i met him,
but no matter what, i have to.
was super late and i dont really care.
whats more important?

have not seen myself happy since then.
i really want myself laugh again,
smile again and happy again.
and only god knows
who will make my happy and blissed.

if only u would ask me out on that day,
if only u agree to be my valentine............