Friday, February 11, 2005 Y
Sorry.. very long never update le.. have been very busy the few days back.. today is the third day of chinese new year.. actually need to work de.. i PURPOSELY took off lo.. to meet my dear or go his hse for visiting.. den?? so?? F*** lo.. cos some ppl very "mi xin" one ma.. dun allowed ppl to go their hse for visiting.. so i asked la.. got wrong meh?? den if his parents dun like me, den wad for i go rite?? dun like me of cos i dun wan to go wad.. somemore i dunnoe if his parents like or dun like me ma.. so can i sae if they dun like me, i dun wan to go?? bcos' of this, he get pissed off.. he saewad dun nid me to go.. dun bother to go and stuff.. KNN lo.. i gt very screwed up lo.. very pissed off lo.. i mean like if i never go visit his parents, we cant go out meh?? we never meet each ther for abt a week le lo.. dun he bother?? dun he miss me or wad?? ok.. i dunnoe.. i dun even know when will be the next time we meeting each other?? NEXT MONTH?? NEXT YEAR?? or wad?? sms him and he jus gave a word reply.. ok.. if he dun wan me to go, dun nid me to go and i nv go.. and i ask him to tell his parents that we are already not together.. better than later his parents keep asking him why i nv go and visit them rite?? if sae that i am busy.. is it possible that i am so busy?? got so many things to attend meh?? wad i sae is it wrong?? ok.. i dunnoe.. but this is wad i feel, wad i wan to sae.. he shld noe i sae whatever comes to my mind.. is there anything wrong with tt?? the thing which angered me most is tt, i purposely took off day and he shld noe.. and in the end, i waste my off day lo.. very frustrating lo.. at least if i go to work, i might not be tt pissed off.. if i am also angry like now, at least there is work for me to do.. WTF!! i'm damn angry lo.. i sms him so many times to hint him.. but he still reply me only a word.. ok.. i really dunnoe wad to sae already.. wad i can sae to him i already said.. since he really dun wan me to go, dun nid me to go, call me dun bother to go.. i got NOTHING to sae.. who knows?? maybe he inviting another gal?? i know this is not right to sae all these.. but i am really very angry lo.. cant i sae some anger words?? cant i vent my anger by words?? Hello, it is not a crime!! he moight feel offended and i know.. but hey.. this is my blog.. i wanna vent my anger here.. can i?? ok.. i admit i wrong in some ways but dun tell me he have said nothing wrong?? ok.. maybe is entirely my fault or wad.. i dun care for the moment.. i jus noe tt i am damn the fucking pissed.. *sorry for all the vulgarities*
