Monday, September 06, 2004 Y
Today is my friend, Pei Jun de birthday!! Happy Birthday Girl!
Haiz.. i am very disappointed today... i always tot that he will online late so i purposely online late today.. tot i would meet him at msn.. but when i found out he have already offline, i was deep sad.. maybe it is really not the time.. but i really believe that one day.. one day, we will be together again.. i believe that always.. jus now after dinner, i have nothing to do.. so i browse the letters and stuff that he had wrote to me in the past.. looking at those letters, our choices letter, agreement and stuff.. it really hurts.. looking at the words.. the content.. wondering wad he was really meaning.. wad he said was true from his bottom of his heart.. remembered he saying he loves me.. the forever promise.. however, it have already been broken.. i really wondered is there really everlasting love in the world?? Why?? Why cant people get to be with the one that they truly love?? Why people always regret after they lose something?? why we jus treasure it before it is gone?? Maybe it is a lesson for us to go thru.. "I had already taste it.... why cant a chance be given to me to prove to him that i really love him.. why cant i be given a chance to really treasure him again?? Why cant he give the relationship a chance??" Although fragments are still there.. but it doesn't mean that the fragments will be there forever.. I really wan to let him that he really means alot to me.. I really love him from the bottom of heart.. but how can i let him know these?? He is really important to me.. "Lord, Please help me!! I really love him!!" I really dun wan to lose him.. I cant forget him.. he have already be apart of me.. If i lose him.. i will be losing a piece of myself.. It really hurts.. I really need him.. I am willing to wait for him no matter how long, jus to be with him... Last time, he worried i will not love him one day.. He dun believe my love for him.. I regretted that in the past i always love but i didn't sae so.. How can let him know how much i love him?? How can i let him love me again?? How can i save this relationship?? Advice to those out there, Treasure the ones beside you.. you never knows wad happens next!! I really need a chance.. PLEASE!! "I LOVE YOU!!"
*No matter wad, I will wait for you! I promise.......*
[Dawn always appears after darkness.............]
