Wednesday, September 08, 2004 Y
Not in a very happy mood today.. Being very down.. Today, me and him broke up for 1 month le.. Should i sae that the time passes very slow or fast?? Fast in the sense that it is getting closer to prelims... and i haven prepared anything as the matter really affects me alot... Slow in the sense that this one month seems to be a year to me... I haven seen him for one month le.. REally miss him very much.. I looking forward to the day when we can meet up.. Hoping the day that "we can be together again" comes... =D Didn't start a day nice either.. still got to wake up early as usual.. :S Chemistry practical and some o'levels questions to be done.. Bubbles kepp appearing.. Couldn't concentrate.. Told venus abt my feeling.. Thanks gal!! Ur words and advice did works somehow.. haha~ She really did understand entirely how i feels.. Feels goos talking to her.. :) After chem, weiting and esther went to jp for a movie.. How i wish i can watch that movie..."the cinderella story".. but i cant.. cos i got the group study at 3... den very rushing for me.. :( It is a movie i have always been waiting for.. Actually i hope and planned to watch with ***.. but i knew it is somehow mission impossible.. looking at his status... I guess no chance le ba.. I dunnoe when i will watch that movie.. Looking at that movie.. it reminds me the storybook "Cinderlella" that i had made for him this valentine's day.. So much memories.. But i think i can only live in memories now.. But i think that movie will be great!! A real and urban life fairy tale!! *Grins*
Sean came to my hse again.. haha~ real notti boy.. very playful..haha~ but he is cute.. he do look like him when he is small.. :P sorry.. cant stop thinking abt him.. :S After bath, go meet dinesh and daryl at the 179 bus-stop to go ntu for group study.. OH~ they are so... Let me waited for so long.. went up the double decked bus.. Still living in memories.. Recalling the times we took a round throughout the university.. haha~ but it is still memories.. :) Still the same.. got to go down tonnes of stairs.. haha~ Lucky only once a week.. *Lolz* oh.. the tutorial room is always so cold man.. wearing jacket but still shivering.. Damn weak!! I am the only one who is studying accounts.. self-motivation!! haha~ so one to one session for me.. Not bad.. Covered two chapters.. at least i cleared some doubts here and there.. so it really benefits me alot... Miss seah got to go early, so did dinesh and daryl.. so the group getting smaller--room getting colder.. Go a miss seah, come a miss chua.. My cute miss chua.. A really cute and fun gal.. "hen tan de lai".. so we chat alot together.. not long after, peijun and licheng leave the group.. they are bored.. haha~ we covered some coordinates geometry.. erm.. learnt alot.. Good job teachers! *Cheers*
No more maths and no more help for accounts so me and miss chua leave too.. heading to the toilet den canteen A.. Keep guessing her age.. Yeah!! clever me.. asked some questions that she didn's realise my motive.. haha~ We have western food for dinner.. hahA~ we shared our dinner.. Although we jus talked today but we have tonnes to talk abt.. seems as if we are long close frenz.. haha~ I shared my history and memories with her.. and she shared hers too.. She said that I am too affected le.. coz I keep talking abt him.. :S Opps.. Even she sae so.. I think i am really very much affected ba.. ?? Planned to have dessert after dinner but the stall is closed when we finished.. haha~ i guess it is heaven will ba.. dun wan me to eat too much.. haha~ We exchanged hp number.. realise her name is Rachel.. haha~ that is the name that me and him decided to name our daughter in future.. but that is only words in the past le.. But i think i will still keep to this name ba.. erm.. *Think too much..* (:S) She told me alot of philosophy.. Bible teaching although i am not a christian.. but it did helps.. Thanks gal! thanks for ur advice and words.. Although we have not know each other for a long time.. but you are a great friend.. *Cheers to you, Rachel* We said good bye and I got down the bus.. Walking home alone.. haha~ thinking for mandy's song "walk me home".. haha~ but to my situation-->not suitable..
WAtching the show to look for babes and hunks.. woa~ The gal "melissa" damn pretty man.. she look like snow white.. wad a princess.. Very tired so laze in the sofa like a lazy doggie.. Did some missing.. Did some dreaming... Did some praying and hoping.. Like a small little gal.. *innocent* hehe~ Den bored.. do some netting.. haha~ so here i am.. oh.. tml got fnn.. :S everyday got to go back to school.. Anyway, only got two more months.. after that.. wan to go back to school to study also cannot le.. so got to cherish wad we have now.. :) Saw something quite unpleasant in msn.. Wondering.. is it referring to me?? Very sad.. Dunnoe wad to do.. Can teach me?? Should i ignore?? I think i better ignore ba.. dun be so paranoid ma rite?? Think of the brighter side.. cos life still goes go-->David's and esther's philosophy.. haha~ Thanks guys for all your support these days.. I know it is very bored and sometimes irritating that i keep repating the same things.. saying the same things.. Sharing my thoughts.. I know it is hard to console me but I really appreciate wad u guys have done for me.. To all my friends... 3 cheers for u guys.. U guys are jus great!! I am lucky to have so much friends around me.. Thanks~
There is this song that mandy sings... "Let me be the one" Let me quote out some parts of it:
Don't you know you're always on my mind Oh How I've missed you since you hit the big time You hurt me I jus can't pretend We used to be together Making dreams making plans You left the world bhind Now i'm asking you would you Let me be the one you give your love to...
I think i am gotta to stop here.. Very tired.. :S Good nite~
*If i say i want you back, Will you turn around and say you wan me too?
Cos' I say i wan to back, This time I really mean it*
~Waiting for you~!!
